Things to Think About III

1. It is as if there is a ratio that needs to be determined before any decisions are made. The fear of being hurt over the happiness one has. When you reflect on it all, and the LAST thing you think about is what could go wrong, and really, the thought is something you have personally and nothing has been wrong, then the ratio is right.

2. Fuck the past. Yeah, it can define who you are, but who you are is living here and now. If there is one thing I have learned watching INTERVENTION, it is that the way you react to what happens to you is what truly makes you you.

3. Take control. You control everything in your life. Everything you say, feel, or do is in YOUR hands. You feel helpless and defenseless when you forget this.

4. Let your guard down, and feel that searing pain of awkwardness and insecurity again. If they still show interest after seeing you stutter and saying absurd things like "I'll find you on facebook", he's totally worth it. And if he doesn't fuck him, he's not worth your fretting anyways.

5. Be considerate. Compromise is good as long as you don't surrender what you are passionate about.

6. Honesty IS the best policy.

7. Spend time in the kitchen. Cooking is so therapeutic. It also puts me at ease to know EXACTLY what I am consuming.

8. Listen. If you catch your self doing most of the talking, start asking questions.

9. Remember everything you learned in Kindergarten. Manners, sharing, patience and values are just as important now as they were then.

Now, there comes a time where I shut the fuck up and take the risk and just go for it.

Wish me luck.

True.

What Do You Want?

I have these posts from time to time. Within the mess of quirky images and phrases and advice and assurances, I have that one that slips in now and again. The one that breaks my heart to write, and read. It's the honest one.

I've been on Spring Break for the past week; my last Spring Break. It feels like everything is coming to a head. In less than two months, I will be done with the chapter in my life that lasted more than a majority of it. I have wrapped myself up in books for years and prolonged my time in school because if anything has ever appeased me, it was busying my mind with school. With the aid of my education, I have been able to move to places I would have never had the chance to be, meet people, etc.

I've had so many amazing experiences, and among those include my relationships. Platonic or not. I have made amazing friends that I hate to be away from. I have dated so many amazing men that tried me and even though it didn't work out, I appreciate every single one of them for the times we had, good and bad, because I learned so much about myself and other people.

Now this all sounds very trivial and mid-grade rambling bullshit, but over this past week of no classes/no studying aside from some light reading, I've experienced for the first time what life is going to be like in less than two months. What a roller coaster.

I had some fun, and I was really bored. I was also a little bit more sober than I'd like to be on a spring break. But I actually made some realizations about myself. Here are some of them:

- At times, I am bat-shit crazy. I really wish I wasn't, but I'm coming to realize that this is who I am, and while I work on my flaws constantly, no one is perfect.
- I just want to give everything I can to the people I care about.
- I want to find love, someday.
- Being completely alone is a hard thing for me at times, but when else am I productive?
- Me - college= a sad scary world. I will be very busy to make sure I can fill my life with a job that has meaning and not just a paycheck.

Ultimately, I've realized that you can't answer the question of what you want until you figure out who you are,

Right. So, random post, but I needed to get it out. I'm learning about me through this too, aren't I?

Things to Think About II

Sometimes I feel as if this critic was describing myself instead of Tom Waits' voice: "[It sounds] like it was soaked in a vat of bourbon, left hanging in the smokehouse for a few months and then taken outside and run over with a car."

Life is exhausting. Being single is no easier than being in a relationship, and that bit of misery certainly loves company. That is why I made this blog. It should be known that just as much as this is for you, it is for me. A non-objective, caring and confident voice that will say what you (I) need to hear, not what you (I) want.

1. You should never trust someone who wants to keep you a secret.

2. Don't forget to call your parents. They love you so much.

3. Happy endings are for stories that aren't finished yet

4. If you ever need a good laugh, take Incubus lyrics and say them out of context.

5. Sundays are the new Saturday nights. Brunch, wine, recovering. Do it with a group and it won't look like alcoholism.

6. Open your curtains and keep them open. The light is motivating.

7. People are shitty. People are stupid. Move on.

8. Please take more interest in NASA's discovery of water on the moon than in Nicholas Cage, as Google analytics have shown on CNN.

Things to Think About

1. Everyone looks better in leather. Get yourself a jacket.

2. Keep a clean room. No one else wants to see your underwear all over the floor. Dirty or clean.

3. Something I've been wondering- what is the proper etiquette when it comes to left over condoms? You know, the dude or chick you regularly start sleeping with brings some to leave at your house, but you don't want to tap it anymore. So now you have these condoms sitting in your nightstand, that you didn't get. Do you give them back? Do you use them with your next partner? Do you throw them away?

4. The better route is to pretend like you've never met them before. Because they were probably drunk and don't remember it.

5. Never order an entire pizza without this intentions of sharing it with everyone there. Not only is that selfish, but goddamn, HOW FUCKING FAT ARE YOU??

6. Discuss your problems with your close friends. And only discuss it when they are really bothering you. Don't bombard everyone at the bar with your personal mishaps. You don't want to be known as a poor sap, do you?

7. Please don't let the cold weather be an excuse for low-maintenance pubes.

8. Morning sex is great, but morning masturbation is awesome too. And at least you will give yourself the respect as to washing your hands before. In other words, sleeping alone isn't all that bad.

9. I don't know if it is just me, but there is something really sexy about a foul mouth.

10. Don't think that because you read "Look At This Fucking Hipster" that you're not a hipster.

11. You want them because they aren't available.